Another "its been forever" kinda thing...

I highly doubt anybody is still reading this thing. I thought a blog would be a good way for me to express myself, since I figured I was on the computer all the time anyways. But as it turns out college has been kicking my butt a lot harder than I had originally anticipated.

Im in the pharmacy program at USC, the kind of degree that when you tell someone, they automatically say "im sorry" or "good luck with that" I consider myself a pretty smart person, throughout high school I got all As and Bs with relatively no studying. But college it a totally different story. Its not that I've had to adjust to a totally different environment...my parents decided that since I was going to the local college that I would live at home the first year and then if my grades were ok they would find me a place. Well first semester came and went, and I managed to come out with a 3.0, the bare minimum I need in order to keep my scholarships. So I made a vow to myself that I would really apply myself 2nd semester and pull that up. But here I am, 10 days away from exams, and already know that I'm going to have to go to summer school and repeat a course if I want to keep it on track to get into Pharmacy school. I don't know really why I felt compelled to write this down here, maybe because I'm tired of hearing the parent's mantra of "we know you can do so much better than this, you just need to apply yourself" and "we're disappointed" I know I royally screwed up this semester and the 3 As that I have in other course is not gonna make up for my slacking in Chemistry. Maybe looking at this tomorrow I will have a more positive outlook, that in the long scheme of things, this will be a huge learning tool and that come the beginning of fall semester sophomore year, this will be behind me. But right now all I can think about is how I failed at something...