Im in the pharmacy program at USC, the kind of degree that when you tell someone, they automatically say "im sorry" or "good luck with that" I consider myself a pretty smart person, throughout high school I got all As and Bs with relatively no studying. But college it a totally different story. Its not that I've had to adjust to a totally different environment...my parents decided that since I was going to the local college that I would live at home the first year and then if my grades were ok they would find me a place. Well first semester came and went, and I managed to come out with a 3.0, the bare minimum I need in order to keep my scholarships. So I made a vow to myself that I would really apply myself 2nd semester and pull that up. But here I am, 10 days away from exams, and already know that I'm going to have to go to summer school and repeat a course if I want to keep it on track to get into Pharmacy school. I don't know really why I felt compelled to write this down here, maybe because I'm tired of hearing the parent's mantra of "we know you can do so much better than this, you just need to apply yourself" and "we're disappointed" I know I royally screwed up this semester and the 3 As that I have in other course is not gonna make up for my slacking in Chemistry. Maybe looking at this tomorrow I will have a more positive outlook, that in the long scheme of things, this will be a huge learning tool and that come the beginning of fall semester sophomore year, this will be behind me. But right now all I can think about is how I failed at something...
Monday, April 14, 2008
Another "its been forever" kinda thing...
I highly doubt anybody is still reading this thing. I thought a blog would be a good way for me to express myself, since I figured I was on the computer all the time anyways. But as it turns out college has been kicking my butt a lot harder than I had originally anticipated.
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Hang in there! I think your situation is pretty typical for a lot of Freshmen... it's just a huge adjustment all around. Especially if, like you said, you were able to get by in high school without a lot of studying, etc. All of us struggled here and there - that's why it's such a big accomplishment when you get that degree! I remember I was sweating bullets the semester I was *supposed* to graduate because I was right on the borderline of passing/failing one of my major courses. I had a job lined up and everything and I was scared TO death. But I sneaked by in the end and all was OK (Phew!). You'll get there - just take it one day at a time and ENJOY yourself! :-)
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ReplyDeleteThe transition can be very challenging. You seem to be the type that will pull through just fine. I have an older cousin (more about my mom's age or maybe even older) but he graduated from USC and the pharmacy program as well.
ReplyDeleteOMG - After 12 straight years of school, who's in the mood to switch into Super-Duper Scholar life when you've just come of age (so to speak)? I'm AMAZED by those who get through their four-(six- ten- twelve- )years of college IMMEDIATELY following high school without pause.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that your parents (well-meaning and loving you to bits, I'm sure) are pressuring you. Please know that struggling to focus solely on ones college studies at 18, 19, 20-years of age is NOT uncommon or abnormal or a sign of immaturity or character weakness.
I'll be praying for you NOT to have to worry about letting disappointing your parents. The only person who's your priority to please should be YOU!
All the best,
Alexa (non-blogger so far, but addicted to reading blogs)